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Saturday, May 21, 2011

Hutang Oh Hutang! - Bila Nak Bayar?

oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
exam is coming nearer
apakah yg sedang anda lakukan wahai cik Amal?
sudahkah anda menjenguk buku2 dan lecture notes yg berlambak?
sudahkah semua anatomi dihafal?
sudahkah semua soalan past years dibuat?
Jika belum, sila pastikan anda berbuat demikian...
kerana anda mempunyai satu "hutang" yg perlu dilangsaikan sebelum 1hb 7 ni.

OK, hutang apakah itu?

mengikut kata ibu terchenta, memandangkan ibu telah menunaikan hajat anda membuat braces *ehem *ehem,
kini tibalah masanya anda membayar 'hutang' yg dijanjikan dengan mendapat sekurang-kurangnya JAYYID JIDDAN di dalam peperiksaan yg bakal menjelang ini.

maknanye...
NO JAYYID/MAKBUL TETAPI HANYA JAYYID JIDDAN/MUMTAZ DIBENARKAN!!!

dan...
oh ye, 
iPad yg menanti jika MUMTAZ adalah sebagai bayaran balik.

erk? 
Amal, kalau keje anda 24/7 menghadap laptop bertemankan iPod ditelinga yg susah untuk dipisahkan bak belangkas, harapanmu sangatlah tipis!

Wahai cik Amal, kalau anda rase hanya dengan dapat Jayyid anda boleh melepaskan diri anda dari diserang dengan soalan yg bertubi2 oleh ibu masa balik nnt, anda SALAH!
Dengan hanya mendapat MUMTAZ...ye...MUMTAZ ye!!!
or...
paling lopek, JAYYID JIDDAN
barulah ibu akan berlapang dada dan melemparkan senyuman yg panjang sampai telinga untuk melepaskan anda dari hukuman kerana pergi Fanmeeting Beast nanti. 

jadi...
sebagai satu cabaran n bayaran balik hutang anda yg x selesai itu, silalah rajin2kan diri menghafal anatomy, physiology, histology, pharmacology, pathology dan semua loji yg wujud kat dunia ni ye.

Jika anda mengharapkan iPad dan ciuman hangat dari ibu terchenta, lebih baik anda belajar sekarang!
Jika anda mahu berjumpa encik Junhyung tersayang untuk melepaskan rindu di jiwa anda, sila kurangkan masa 
ber-Facebook, ber-Youtube, ber-Twitter 
anda mulai sekarang!

Dengan mendapat sekurang-kurangnya...JAYYID JIDDAN sahaja, anda mampu melepaskan diri dari semua  kekusutan dan permasalahan ini.

bukan itu sahaja, anda juga mampu bershopping x hengat dunia menggunakan alasan:
SAYA SUDAH PUN BERJAYA MEMBAYAR HUTANG IBU!
SEBAGAI GANJARAN LAGI, 
JOM SHOPPING!

okay, Amal, camane nak dapat result gempak kalau macam ni la pemikiran anda?
nampak sgt x ikhlas...
tak...tak...
supposednya macam ni:

SAYA MAHU BELAJAR BERSUNGGUH-SUNGGUH BUKAN SAHAJA UNTUK EXAM KALI INI, TETAPI EXAM2 AKAN DATANG UNTUK MENJADI SEORANG DOKTOR YG CEMERLANG DAN BERJASA BUAT KELUARGA, BANGSA, AGAMA DAN NEGARA.

BUKAN...

untuk iPad yang bila2 boleh rosak or dicuri si penjahat durhaka
or Junhyung yang x mungkin anda akan kawin unless die cakap
"Saya akan keluar dari group B****, sebab saya nak kawin dengan si dia (aka miss A***)" - tapi sebelum tu, anda kene masuk Islam dulu,
terima kasih!

Jadi,
sebagai satu permulaan yang baik, marilah kita bersama2 menjayakan exam fever ni
dengan menilik buku2 medic dan lecture2 notes ni ya...

AMAL! GO AMAL!
You can do it!

Jadi,
dengan ini saya mengisytiharkan...
bermula saat ini,
Pembayaran 'hutang' saya berjalan.
mari kita lihat hasilnya kelak

Aminnn...
Moga Allah permudahkan segala urusan dan berjaya bukan hanya di dunia, tapi di akhirat!
Let's strive for the best
Break both legs


Sunday, May 15, 2011

Conversation Between Us

Where my heart still is, I admit I'm not too sure.
When the sky starts to cry, I become reminiscent and lonely.
Although I like to think I've moved on, I can't help but think that
I shouldn't have let go, I should've held on tighter.

The beginning was so pure and pubescent, virgin and untainted.
When a person is gone, should you miss him or remember him?
If you miss him, do you look back at old pictures and cry?
If you remember him, do you think of the tone of his voice, his laughter?
Do you think back to the conversations between you and him?

Conversations between Us? 

Yayyy!!! Akhirnya habis jugak bace this fanfic (fanfiction) in Soompi. It took me 2 days to finish reading it. 
Actually, I'm not really into reading all these fictions in internet especially when they aren't from one of the bestsellers. I dunno, I appreciate something with a nicely designed, hard-covered novel instead for my extra leisure. It looks more 'trustful' and 'believable'. But, I always end up being brokenhearted. 
The contents are far away from what I hope it will lead me to - SATISFACTION. 

So, this one day, mase I opened my Youtube channel, suddenly ada this one video suggested for me. 
"Conversation Between Us Trailer"
At first, I thought it was real trailer. So, macam nak tau gak, about the preview of the story, best sgt ke, and it turned out to be just a FanVid made by the fans.
The way they edited the scenes into one story, so professional - I was actually amused by the work done.

Then I started looking through the reviews and comments, and most of them were positive.
Then I saw this sentence A LOT:

April Loves Black Coffee

That made me wonder and jumped into a deep curiosity. 
What the hell does "April Loves Black Coffee" has to do with this trailer?"

I read the description, until I found out the real connection between them.
The trailer was specially made for this one fanfic entitled: 

CONVERSATION BETWEEN US (CBU)

and, it was crowned as the best fanfic of the year

What's so good about this fanfic to be able to hold such fame? I was shot with multiple questions, until the last two days, I made my move. 
Selalunye, I dare say, I always leave myself reading half-way especially for this type of reading.
Bukan nak cakap ape, but I look at them as something 'cheap' - JAHAT gile, so I appreciate them less as compared to those bestsellers have to offer.

When I first read the preview, I talked to myself:
"It does look believable and trustful"
Somehow, the fanfic managed to grab my full attention. 
Mula2 tgk the pages, mmg nak give up la.
40 pages for only a fiction written by an unknown writer, that's not worthy. 

So like I first said, the preview was the one who lead me. 
I wanted to know more, and I became greedy as the page went by.
Every details, I pictured them perfectly in my head. And, to tell the truth, I seriously mmg x berape sgt cerita yg sooo overly romantic like ehem* Twilight *ehem. 
I don't really believe in a pure, innocent love. - TIPU gile. 
I wanted something filled with comedy, mainly because I always picture my future love as someone with humor and arrogant at the same time. - Amal, when n where can u find such guy?

and I found him in this story - Jaewon (the main guy)
Sometimes, while reading the fanfic, I always wonder, if it's actually a total fiction or a fact I was actually picturing the fiction out to be a fact?
I dare say, none of the fictions I read before, can actually drive me together throughout the story. 
How ridiculous I can be, when I was in pain the same way as the characters were. 

It started with how the main female character (Maybelline Lee aka May - make fun of me, cause that's how I got attached to this story OK) met the antagonist - Sangwoo. At first, Sangwoo aka Crist was the good, romantic, nice and oh-so-handsome guy every woman adores until later on, when the male character (Jaewon aka Mayhem) came into the picture, his confusions, obsession and greed ate him inside. 
Macam all those typical Korean dramas, you'll be offered with this triangle love. 
But, the way their love entangled, somehow, differs a bit. 
Sangwoo confused May as his long lost love, his darkest memory he wanted to forget, but the truth is, his Misun (Sangwoo's ex-gf) was long gone. He wanted May to be Misun. 
Then, came Jaewon (the biggest rival of Sangwoo), he just wanted to play along the game created by Sangwoo.  Little he knew, he actually took another step to meet his ultimate end when he finally got attached to May. 



Jaewon - he's surrounded with unsolved mysteries. Everything about him was sooo secretive. His arrogant humor, I never found such character before. A character if in reality, mmg rase nak bagi penampar but x jadi because, when u actually wanted to, u found yourself fell for him even more. 

May - She got her name from Maybelline???. The reason why? U have to read it by yourself. The main female character. She seemed to be a tough girl on the outside, but the reality is, she's a weakling. Until, the day she met Jaewon, and how the truth was being revealed, she never meets a pure loyalty. She kept on meeting betrayal and hurtful events in her life until the end.

Sangwoo - If this fiction is not just a...fiction - Mmg dah lama dah bunuh mamat ni. Ok, me being emo here, mcm la cerita ni betul2 wujud - 
He's the good guy at the beginning then a bad guy, then a good guy again, then a devil at the end. 

about the rest of the characters, rasa x perlu la nak mention kat sini. Kalau nak tau sangat, u got to read it by yourself la.
Blame the PMS again, so far, this fanfic has brought these tiny droplets of tears out of my eyes a bit. Emo x memasal. And blame the background music from my iPod. Lagu nak sentimental je. 

oh yeah, talking about music, I just wanted to share the hype. I was jumping hysterically when I found out about Beast's comeback. Junhyung...he shouldn't kill me this way. Kenapa handsome sgt OK! Boleh x, x payah nak wat suare macho2 time rap tu, pastu nak buat hairstyle bagai HyunBin dalam Secret Garden? 
Lepas tu, nak cakap2 pulak, it's a fact tu kan!

and this one very song yang extremely addictive, and because of this song, I pictured CBU as not just another fiction randomly written in internet. 



Pick up quotes:
May: What is your favourite colour?
Jaewon: Black
Jaewon: What is your favourite colour?
May: Pink

see? I blend the colors just for you two, n i'm gonna make the same for my next dental brackets...:))

how dedicative is that?

FOREVER APRIL LOVES BLACK COFFEE


Monday, May 9, 2011

Mother's Day

Happy Belated Mother's Day Ibu!!!
I'm sorry I'm this kind of daughter,
Thanks for everything,
For the unstoppable nagging and lectures
For the perfect food I digested,
For the warmth and tenderness 
For having me with pain
I cannot list them all, cause it will take me forever

Semalam, I texted my Ibu just nak wish die Mother's day. At first, mmg hesitate sgt2 la, cause I'm not the type yg overly romantic, even though Libran is known to be somehow romantic. Time type tu pon, I wrote something so childish n ntah pape. Being my first time to send mother's day message mmg agak mencabar keegoan diri ni. 
For the past 21 years, mmg susah gile nak show my affection for someone especially my family, but I talked to myself, kenapa perlu malu nak tunjukkn kasih sayang kita pada ibu sendiri yg melahirkan kita sebelum ni, tapi tidak kepada kekasih hati yg x confirm lagi jadi bakal suami? 
But honestly, my siblings mmg macam tu. Maybe because ktorg dibesarkan dalam family yg strict, so we became awkward nak express our love between us. 
Even till now pon, lepas sembahyang berjemaah, time salam dgn family, mesti akn rase awkward nak cium my big bro's punye pipi and dahi. But, alhamdulillah, but my along has grown a lot n we become more open to each other. Dia selalu nasihat not to hide your love from your family but to show it more, and his care for us deepened lately. 
Jadi, I thought, why not give yourself a chance once in a while, lagipun bukanlah dosa tapi pahala adela, lagi2 if your mom gembira tgk anak sendiri menghargai jasa die selama ni. Walaupon x sebesar mane, hanye sekerat message, but deep inside, dorg mesti rase bangga. 

I texted my mom pagi2 bute waktu Egypt kot, dgn harapan my mom akan bace message tu dekat sekolah. For someone yg memang selalu lupe like my mom, I should call her instead, but there's still ego left inside me yg pulled me away and I ended up message je. 
I sent her with this:

"Happy Mother's Day ibu. May Allah bless you in everything you do. Thanx for everything.
You're the greatest ibu!
Always pray for our success.
Love u, 
mmuahh

okay, truthfully, mule2 nak type tu, mmg asyik typo je time tekan keypad hp tu.Button cancel tu x yah cakap la, berapa kali kot tekan. and word mmuah at the end tu, I swear, I mmg letak UNAWARELY. Bile send tu, x tgk blk pon message tu, lantak la typo ke x. I felt greasy gile kot mase tu. 
Macam a guy yg nak ngorat any woman dgn ayat2 jiwang, mcm tu la what I felt.
Tgk2 je, dah tertekan option SEND tu and delivered. 

For one whole day, I waited my mom punye reply. Dalam hati x yah cakap la, asyik risau je, kenapa ibu x balas2 lagi. Ibu marah ke, ibu merajuk ke, or something bad happened. 
Kalau lelaki tgh tggu perempuan tu terima pinangan dia or x, mcm tu la what I felt. 
Sedih and kecewa pon ade memule tu, yela, penat2 reka ayat last2 x balas ape2 pun.

tapi I know, I always have faith in my mom, I know, she won't upset or frustrate me. 
Malam tu, I checked again my inbox. I was touched, happy and sad when I finally have her message.

"Alhamdulillah. Syukur. I want to be a good serven for Allah and good mother. 
I love you sooo much my sweeties. 
I want u 2B a good mother too. 
I always pray 4 your success.
May Allah full fill your dreams.
May your dreams come through"
-Ibu

Ya Allah, time dapat message tu, rase nak nangis pon ade cause eventually I remembered this one very moment of us. Ade this one night, masa tu I became sulky. X tau la kenapa kan, but mmg emo la hari tu. Senyap je depan Ibu, mcm x respond sgt. So, sebab tension yg x tentu pasal tu, I ended up tertido. 
What happened after dat, was da memorable part for me, and I swear, I will never forget dat till I die.

Ibu datang my bilik and die kemaskan all the things yg bersepah kat bilik tu. Mase tu, I terjage sikit, but sebab ego yg x berkesudahan, buat2 tido lagi la. Then, she switched off lampu bilik. Masa tu, I thought Ibu akan pergi masuk bilik die balik cause she always acted like dat before. But, suddenly, I felt something strange, something warm embracing me from the back. I thought ade jembalang yang tetibe muncul, but it was my Ibu hugging me.
I was speechless and frozen atas katil time tu. She caressed me, sweeping off my hair softly, and hugged me tighter in her warm body. 

At that very moment, my eyes became teary, but sebab x nak obviouskan yg I was actually pretending to sleep, I held it. I kept asking myself, if she ever did the same way before, unnoticed by me? 
and suddenly, there's an extreme guilt surrounded me. How can I be so sinful towards her, but yet, she still treated me that way. How cruel I am.

and then I ended up sleeping again. I felt so safe and warm sampai lena gila tidur. 
Even the next day pon, I acted like nothing happened as I kept it secret for my own memory. 
I wanted to treasure it as much as I can.

Sebab, terigtkan that moment la, I was deeply touched dapat message Ibu semalam.
Lepas bace tu, I giggled a bit. 
How cute Ibu can be, with all those grammatical errors...even though more or less, I am the same too. Keke.
How she wrote sweeties instead of sweety. Igtkan die forward message ni to all my bros too, tapi x kan la, cause Ibu nak me jadi a good mother, so my brothers kan lelaki, jadi x mungkin diorg boleh beranak kan, 
unless Allah want to do so. Then, mmg histeric gile la, one day I'm gonna be the first bidan yang keluarkan baby from a man's womb (Let's talk about REAL man here)...hoho...feymes I giteeww

So, for all mothers and mother-to-be around the world, Happy Belated Mother's Day aunties, sisters.
Appreciate our mother while she's still alive. Even without her presence in this world, let's not forget how beautiful her love was for us. 
Let's make Mother's Day everyday. 
Sesungguhnya, syurga tu terletak di bawah telapak kaki ibu. 
Let's be a daughter or son our mom can be proud of. 

last but not least;
BORN AGAIN, STILL YOUR DAUGHTER

Puan Noraini Abd Manaf, walaupon anda selalu suruh saya diet  and buat itu n ini, saya tetap terima kritikan anda sebab saya syg anda lebih dari segala-galanya. Jangan lupe iPad yg dijanjikan jika saya dapat mumtaz ye. hoho



Thursday, May 5, 2011

"Let's Run Away" - Just a Dream

I was thinkin about him
thinkin about me
thinkin about us
what we gonna be?
Open my eyes...(yeah)
It was only just a dream 
Nelly's Just a Dream edited lyrics

Running Man!


Today I dreamt of you, and it wasn't a bad nor a very good one. It was just a simple dream lead by my restless mind from the torturing day. It started with my journey back from Alexandria with my high school friends. We attended Mara's anual dinner. Oh come on! when did I managed to get Mara's loan or scholarship before? And on the way back to Mansoura, we ended up being left in the highway by the Dirasat guys for a stupid reason - cause we wanted to attend Medic's Got Talent. 
Hahaha...the power of Bantah Medic Got Talent

and so...we did

and being only a dream, you can dream of any stupid things as a reality. 
I dunno, when on earth, you managed to present at the scene.
and you came down from a truck???

and unawarely,
I was smiling to my heart's contents
when my eyes meet yours
(Yucks! The after effect from watching too many Korean dramas)

We spoke nothing along the journey
(what is this? This is sooo unromantic)
You were silent, while I took the role as the silence breaker. 

Then, we stopped for awhile at the R&R 
(since when Egypt provided us this?)
Everyone settled themselves until one of my friends asked me to buy some food there. 
and it was at night (as I remembered)
I asked for everyone's order, until it was your turn - You left me with a strange silence. =.='
then, I left and headed my way to the store alone with an unsatisfied feeling of being ignored

what came to surprise, 
you followed after me from the back
but in the same manner as before
COLDLY

You followed every steps I took 
and for every stores we visited, we were left with nothing
until I managed to grab some fruits and tamarinds, and show them off to you, thick-skinned. 

I expected a good reply - but the cold you...

you pulled the same expression at first
and after awhil, you smiled and laughed at the end
(this is sooo scripted!)
and I was taken aback 

and the worst and non-sense part happened after:

You took me to the nearest railway station, leaving others behind
and said:
"Let's run away"
o.O

thank God, I managed to woke up just before I can give out the answer.

and yeah, sleeping after Asar is not a good thing, but I just can't help myself when I missed some scenes while watching Korean drama. Dun blame a sleepy head like me.

and you, I dunno why my mind pictured us like that.
and WTH you're doing in my dream, can't I have my Korean crushes instead of you?

conclusion:
This is what you get for watching too much Running Man and Korean dramas


Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Doc, I Broke it Again

Wuu. I'm sorry I made the same mistake again. 
Well, I should be more careful towards my babies (dental brackets).
I'm sooo gonna get killed for the next appointment.
=.="

Blame me not cause he's the one who made it wrongly. 
(Confession of an unsatisfied customer)

He asked me too much, and to add with, I was under treatment during that time. 
You wanted me to respond at the same time while fixing my teeth? 
=.="

but he was cute too, I mean not his face la, cause my definition of cute is this:

or


or


or 


dun make me picking them out, cause it will lead me to dig out the entire my pictures folder in this lappie. 
=.='

call me a Korean freak, cause I'm definitely one but I'm not a total freak OK!
who the hell can resist the uber cuteness and an awesome package of hot bod + talent?
answer me

well, I went for my dental appointment yesterday in hope for my upper two premolars to be removed, but they served me for another band changing instead. 
=.='
hey, I never been so excited to remove my teeth in my entire life before, so can't you see the eagerness of this patient of yours? 
pffftt~
I waited for weeks for it to be done, but honestly, he replied me with:
next treatment
WHAT???

but I forgive you since I broke my bracket again this time. Sorry, doc!
I thought it was my chocolate I ate before being stuck there. Gah~ I picked it out, and it turned out to be my bracket. keke~
and how you asked me about Korean song again.

D: Are you still listening to Korean songs?
Me: Yes
D: Malaysians understand Korean?
Me: Yes (This is an absurd answer and definite lie here. HELLOO??? When on earth can u watch one full Korean show without the english subtitles provided Amal?)
so, to make it believable, I added with "little" at the end. 
Well, it all started when I was busily handling my iPod before the treatment. He asked me about the song I listened to, how he mistakenly thought South Korea is the neighbour of Malaysia, and also for the 'nice' advice:
Korean is not good for your English
Eeerrrkkkk??? If it wasn't because of all these Korean thingy, I will be a total loser now. 
but anyway, thanks~

and while fixing here n there, he complained about how my bracket broke.
Sorry, but dental brackets are meant to be broken.
and I dunno how to respond to him again after this.

I should tell him before how my parents suggested me to wear iron shoes in school, and how I turned my Chinese silk baju kurung into my other kain buruk.

but thank God, 
I found this:

this...saves me
at least I can reply him with...
I can't avoid it, no matter how careful I can be
convincing enough?

and pleaaassseee, dun make it hurtful. I want to chew my food in joy and satisfaction. 

and yeah, thanks for the wireless. It was fast enough for me to enjoy my world tour by using Google map in ipod. Hoho...I'm sooo gonna recharge my ipod fully after this.
Speaking of this, who the hell enjoy Google map as much as I do?

Youtube, Facebook, Twitter

let's ditch medical notes for this time



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