The Best Lesson

I do not own this pic. LOOOVVVIIINGGGG the messages written. 

It hase been a while since I wrote the last poem for my 2nd collection. Handling packed schedules and writing at the same time is not an easy task for a procrastinator like me. A big applause and millions of kisses and hugs for my one and only editor: Miss Sitti for the time you have spent so far. Thanks babe. You're always the best editor of mine so far. I can rely my full faith only on you. 

I dunno why, but it takes me with a lot of courage and a solid encouragement only to present my fellow readers with this poem I made from a wasted time. And after hearing such a heartbreaking story from one my housemates, I thought it isn't a sinful attempt to deliver those emotions into some words, right?

To that fellow, I just want to tell you this:

You have just escaped yourself from a journey with wonders. You don't deserve her after all she gave to you...

If you don't know the right meaning of these words - APPRECIATE, GRATEFUL - Boy; you should learn them better.

Wounding her tiny, fragile heart is not a good thing, you know.

To that girl, be strong! Allah knows better and what is good for both of you. It's about time to finalize all these heartbreaking episodes of your love life. Let the ends begin.

Here; I present you with this portrait of emotions I made:

THE BEST LESSON

Poem by: Invictuscoramal

Edited by: Sitti

Behind my courage,  lies immense fear,

Fear of recollections the memory of our time together.

I am fed up of the paranoia that accompanies it

but I have no idea how to keep it locked away.

Have you ever regretted our history together?

"I have"

A guiltless goodbye you bid me,

to a better place, I presume?

I've lost once in this battle

Facing the grief of losing,

the feeling of abandonment,

the fake hopes, the waiting

and finally left broken-hearted.

Your perfection is tantalising

You are the things that I'll never want to change

Someone who I could put all my trust to

and share all the secrets that I have.

And you betrayed me;

gave me unbearable agony.

Taking advantage of your position,

you took away my innocence.

You tore me apart.

But still,

I gave you countless chances

still wishing to share all the warmth that I have with you in your slumber

I wish to sing my best lullaby in your dreams.

Praying for us to make it through

and realise the promises that we wrote.

I was naive.

It never happened.

And in my heart, you are dead to me.

This is our final chapter.

In contrary, I'm feeling good with all the love around me. Henry has just caught my eyes (screaaaammmm) 

To omma and appa: 

Born Again, Still Your Daughter - Stealing this from Junnie's tattoo. 

Finally, I can Touch You!

WELCOME HOME Sayaaaannngggg!!!~

and special thanks to cik Azie yg sudi berlari ke sane sini temankan saya carik boyfriend baru saya semalam. 

Finally...

selepas 5 tahun menunggu dgn penuh kesabaran, dgn penuh kedugaan, dan perit jerih, berjaya gak menemui si dia.
Terharu gile dpt jumpe die akhirnya. ngehehehe~

5 tahun diperlukan hanya untuk memiliki dirimu sepenuhnya. Dan selama 5 tahun itu, aku dipenuhi dilema, caci hamun n kekecewaan di tengah jalan. Punye la excited dpt jumpe die haritu, sampai sanggup lari ke sane sini x hengat panas terik memancar kat muke ni. Gila teguh cinta!

Aku even sanggup gadaikan segala keinginan yg lain just nak dapatkan ko je, tau x. Hehe~

hohoho

punyelah teguh cinte aku ni, aku harap ko x kan abaikan aku or kecewakan aku mcm yg sebelum ni.

hihihi

(ni yg excited nih klau balik Mesir after berjaye dpt ko)

walaupun pada mulenye, you're not my cup of tea, 

tapi...

lps 2nd meeting, terus cair pulak. Pantang puji sikit je, terus cair. Apela~~

betul la cakap Azie, agaknye die x bagi aku dapatkan yang selain ko kot sebelum ni. Nasib baik, terdetik kat hati nak jenguk tingkat 2 semalam ngn Azie, kalau x, x jumpe la aku dgn si dia nih.

so, aku dah decide nak kenalkan si dia kat blog nih, jadi terpakselah kenalkan jugak.

selama 5 tahun memendam rasa, akhirnya si dia ni lah yang berjaya menawan hatiku:

Light, Camera, ACTION!

Erkkk???

hehe, kacak x?

okay, walapun ini hanye akan berlaku di dalam mimpiku saja, n x mungkin berlaku di mase hadapan, ak masih mengharapkan supaya ia nya tetap berlaku
(boleh x ko sedar btw fantasi dgn realiti, Amal???)

bukan si dia seperti dlm gambar di atas, but si dia yg di bawah ni:

iPod Touch 4th Generation 

hohohoh..sorry, x de gamba realiti yg diambil sendiri memandangkan lupe nak bwk usb from Mesir time evacuate hari tuh. Kecoh sgt nak 7kg, sume mende nak campak kuar balik from beg. 

To cik Sarah Salahuddin, sorry la ye sayang, terbeli same mcm ko.

Aku mmg beriye gile nak beli iPod Classic tuh, aku penah sampai x nak makan kt PASUM sbb nak berjimat cermat beli minatang tuh. Tapi, semalam aku carik kat MAC city tuh pon sampai ronde dua kali, cucuk ATM terus sebab nak terus beli, skali pak cik salesman tuh balas dgn jaya n gembiranye "dah x de stok la dik", kecewa hati ni..mak aihhh...x terkata. By da time die cakap, sile pegi ke sekian, sekian tempat sambil dgn penuh ramahnye siap bagi direction, aku terus memecut laju x hengat dunie nak carik iPod tu.
Pastu, dengan berbekalkan beberapa jam yg masih tinggal lepas ibu bagi time limit, ape lagi...cam lipas kudung la carik minatang tuh.

Sebenarnye niat nak beli iPod tu dah lame ade, tapi yela kan...time sekolah, ade ke cukup $$$ nak tampung beli dia nih. Kalau dah duit sekolah tu mak bapak bagi cukup2 klau nak mkn kat kantin sambil kire2 hari ape je leh mkn kat kantin, n selebihnye disimpan (kononnye untuk mase hadapan), tinggal mimpi jela nak dapat iPod tuh. So, after 5 tahun yg sgt la pilu (tragis la sgt kn...), lepas satu keajaiban akhirnya berlaku...sekali check dlm ATM Bank Islam...
WTH??? Aku x sangke, duit yg aku belanjekan selama di PASUM tuh datang blk agaknye. Ape lagi, iPod satu la! Hahahahaha...

memule hati ni nak beli sgt yang ni:

iPod Classi 160gb yang kini tinggal sebagai kenangan silam

tapi tula, dah name x jodoh tuh, x ke mana pon. Seriyes, walaupon x penah bercinta, lagi la plak kan nak kawin, mmg sesuai benar kenenye dgn situation ak nih. Sampai la ak give up nak carik iPod tuh, pastu ditambah plak ngn topup yg tetbe mengurang (ini sume sebab on twitter kat hp la ni, kan dah kene charge x hengat dunie, bajet ini Mesir ape...sekali bukak tenet sehari, tolong 1 genih je), tetibe diri ni terus nak beli topup kat dalam Dataran Pahlawan tu. Tengah2 nak beli topup tuh, sempat lagi tanye kt akak tuh, mane2 la tau ade plak die nak jual iPod kat situ kan. Skali die balas...
"Sini xde jual iPod, kat atas, tingkat 1 maybe ade"
banyak la die tingkat satu, kalau aku x naik lagi satu tingkat x jumpe ak ngn si dia nih, tau x.

Seb baek Azie suh naik atas dulu, usha mane tau ade ke. Tula, kalau dah jodoh tu ade, mmg akan bertemu gak akhirnya. Hohohoho...mcm tgh nak cari jodoh dah bunyinye.

Time tula, ak jumpe si dia nih lagi skali. Walaupon, hati masih memendam rasa terhadap encik iPod classic tu, still rase nak mengubah taste gak. Lepas cam hampa gak org tu balas die x jual classic but touch adela, ak pon cam...whatever la. Alang2 dah bazirkan mase gi sane sini carik classic nih, jenguk2la pulak si touch ni.

Cina tu punye la nak suruh ak beli touch tu, ntah la memule cam tye die ade classic x. X mo berubah hati lagi. Patu, lepas pegang sendiri Touch tu, tgk ape kelebihan die berbanding classic. iPhone x yah ckp la, klau die suh ak beli sebijik, ak bg sebijik penumbuk kt muke die time tuh. Hp dah ade, jgn ngengade nak suh ak bazir beli satu. Memule tu, pye la kuat nak defend classic. Siap gado lagi (eh...xdela, tambah je ni). Ak ckp iPod Classic ade 160gb, dh mcm external hard disk dah. Patu die ckp ngn ak, Classic tu best la klau nak dgr lagu je. Ak ckp la, ak mmg suke dgr lagu n tgk vid je. Game2 ni biase jek (Banyak la punye biase). x penting sgt pon. Patu die balas blk, "Cube lu tgk ni, Classic manyak mane besar bole kasi tgk video? Kecik je"

Patu...x tau nape, terus berubah hati gile 100%. X setia sungguh, sikit je die balas, boleh terus upside down dah hati ni. Aku pun stuju nak beli satu. Sekali tgk harge die tampal kat situ RM899!!!. Patu ngn berani nye ckp ikut harge tenet. Agak2la bang...saya ni x buta IT lagi kay! Saya dah survey lame iPod tu kat internet. Nak lempang muke die pon ade gak time tu, tapi anak org kan, x bole la wat cm2. Patu, terhegeh2la die carik harge tenet tuh, patu siap bagi alasan internet down la. Ko hengat ak x tau ke taktik lame tu? Ak ape lagi baran la, last2 die bg harge murah smpai ak puas hati.

Ditambahkan cite, sekali teeeeetttttt* masa anda bershopping telah tamat, sila berhenti sekarang. Dapat pulak call from ibu ckp die dah sampai Mahkota Parade. Aiiisseeehhh, mmg wrong timing gak la. Sambil dpt ugutan untuk tidak mengambil saya pulang sebab ibu give up mane Dataran Pahlawan tu, padahal depan mata je, aku  pon ape lagi. Suh je cina tu poskan kat ak gune pos laju. Dgn alasan, nak balik Mesir dah (mmg betul pon), die last2 setuju. Bagus la gak die cakap die boleh bayarkan kos pos laju tu. Aku ape lagi...hoho...iPod Touch satu!

tuptaptuptap, lepas sehari menunggu, ibu call ckp ade parcel from Dataran Pahlawan datang rumah. Sepanjang wat medical check-up tuh, hati ni pye la exciteeeddd gile nak jumpe dgn si dia nih. Tapi sebelum tuh, soalan yang mesti dijawab: "ape yg ko beli ngah?"
erkk...mp3? itu jela mampu ak bgtau ibu. Klau ak ckp iPod kang, lagi byk soklan ditanye, lagi sikit peluang nak dpt $$$ masuk akaun blk. Hehe...Sorry ibu, tapi betul la iPod tuh, kire mcm mp3 kn? kn? kn?

jadi...selepas berjaya dpt si iPod touch nih, ak mmg ckp la, klau iPod nih leh berjaye membuatkan ak x dpt bezakan realiti n fantasi game tu, klau makan pon sggp ditinggalkan sebab pye la shiookkk nye main game, nampak gayenye...PSP tuh mintak la dijauhkan from ak ni. Kang ade gak ak tuka kos, dari amik medic terus jadik full-time gamer.

skang nih, dah hampir seminggu bersama, ak x bagi name ape lagi kat si dia nih.
Kalau dulu sume gadget akan ade name masing2, skang ni cam malas plak nak bagi satu.
Tapi memndangkan dah 5 tahun, akhirnya dpt gak satu barang Apple wlpon bkan iPod classic yg ak idamkan dulu, ak bg la name kat die ni:

WELCOME HOME Junjun!!!
Bersempena dgn fandom baru nih, sebab name Donghae sume dah kene amik dgn anak patung, name gadget bagi kat Junhyung plak la. Kalau Donghae jadik Haehae, iPod nih jadi JunJun. Hohohoho...

last but not least...

kepada sesape yg nak ak recommend cite Korea untuk ditengok waktu kebusanan...
sile tengok Dream High ye! Walaupon some of dorg x reti berlakon sgt, cm stiff sikit, tapi cite die...BEST! Inspiring gak la!!! Before tu, sile beratur dulu ye kalau anda rase si Soo Hyun aka Sam Dong tu memikat mate anda. Hehe...

dalam cite nih ade 2PM (Taecyeon, Wooyoung, Chansung, Nichkhun), Miss A (Suzy), IU, T-ara (Eunjung), even Leeteuk & Eunhyuk (Suju), Kim Hyun Joong (ss501), Bae Yong Joon (Winter Sonata), JYP (2PM pye boss) and plng penting skalik, Kim Soo Hyun!!!

currently addicted to this song:

lagu yang membuatkan Sam Dong n Hyemi kene kejar ngn Yakuza.