i don't hate you?

my 1st post in BM

ak tau la ko x kn bace bende nih, but ape ak kesah?STFO ok?

klau ko rse ko 2 bgs sgt, erm...biase2 je la ak rse, mybe sebab ko tu sum1 ak kene respect gile bab so lyke ak rse ko bgs la...wlpon x....

klau ko rse dgn menyakitkan hati ak leh wat jiwa ko rse tenang n happy, bagus la sbb ak pon cm2 gak...ko igt ak ske ke dekat2 ngn ko? ak rse cam meluat weyh...seriyes...klau ko syg sgt owg len yg perangai die mmg totally bkn ak tuh x yah la nak duk2 ngengade pnggil ak wat 2 wat ni..ape? ko igt ak ske? klau ko rse ak ni bodoh, x yah la nak mntak tolong from ak cause at the end ko akn bengang ngn ape yg ak wat...sbb ak bkn la ikhlas sgt nk tolong lagi2 sbb ko yg mntak tolong..seriyes, dgr suare ko je ak dh rse saket ati, tpi yela, sbb ak kene hormat ko ak wat gak la kn...

klau ko rse ak bodoh n x gune, n suuuuukkkeeee sgt saketkn ati ak x yah la nak dtng dkt ngn ak..bile ak tolak, ko ckp ak ni x leh pakai...pas2 x abes2 nak mencarut ckp ak bodoh, bangang, x de otak kn?klau ak jd bodoh pon, terima kasih la kt ko, oh lupe lak, klau ak bodoh, ko sure nye akn ungkit bende dulu more from owg len kn? ko igt ak ape? pas2 klau ko ske sgt mengata buruk psl ak kt dpn owg len, ak simpan jek, senyum jek, sbb yela x nak org len rse apela malang sgt ko ni kn kenal owg cm ak....

hey, klau agknye la ak x de, ko ske x? ak rse cm ko ske je kn? happy je, yela....owg yg ko syg 2 ade je sentiase menemani ko kononyela, but mmg F*** nk mati la, tyme mntak tolong hapak pon tarak~ak gak yg kene prepare tolong uruskn die..WTF???klau harapkn die, sampai kiamat pon ak x rse jalan weyh~

so, klau lps ni org saketkn hati ak, ak dendam weyh, ak x tipu, ak mmg dendam n ak akn bls blk...g mampus la or nak ckp ak ape..ak setan ke ak iblis ke...ak dh promise kt diri ak x nak nanges lg sbb owg cam ko...ntah, ak rse cm ak x gune n mkn bodo je nanges 4 owg cm ko....

kay la...ak doakan jela ko buat da best dlm idup ko ye...lg ak tulis lg byk dosa ak...tp ak bgtau ape ak rse je..lntak la sape nak bace or dgr pon~

Long Farewell My...

You may never read this, enough saying. But what held me before, a thankful sincerity for letting me off - 210710

I feared in the midst of reality and fantasy

I feared what people most fear of - a fatal separation, a total loss

I was tormented with the unobtainable sight

I endulged the amusement in your smiles and pleasures

I grieved the most pain with your weak heart and tears

I pictured every moments you created in motion

I pleaded myself for a second chance - to believe, and being believed

for a false, ridiculous wish

I dragged the hideous face from facing yours

I lived in lies, an ocean of mistaken intentions - only to forget

I smiled with each praises presented for you

I fought along with any false accusations thrown - so that no more fears and worries can live within

I watched the moves - the one you didn't dreaming before, the one who pulled us here

I listened to the melodies in your songs - the soothing rhythm you always have inside them

I caught a glimpse only for the look of your perfection

I walked the same path - where your warmth still left

I performed the gestures - the exact way as yours

I am the idiot - who struggled so much to move

I am the genius - who bravely entered the future she will never holds

for whoever I might be - you will always be the longest soul who stayed and remained

"May a better chapter wait for us in the future, a new page where we can write the happiness once again - not as together but with someone new, someone we can hold our trust to"

Long farewell my love, my 'brother' - Lynn