You, I Hate You

You tormented my life again

You broke my heart eternally

You scattered my patience heartlessly 

You made my long wait meaningless

what is this?

a conspiracy?

DAMN IT!

I believed I will be there right in front of u, gathering all my strength within an ocean of homo sapiens, but, I ended up holding onto my stressful days instead. 

You, I hate you (not in a bad way)

I know, I'm not as loyal as u expect me to be, but I'm loyal enough to put you into my top 3 list in my own fandomland for these past 5 years. To add with, I never turned my back from liking you even though it hardens me with the arrival of the new eye candies nowadays. 

How do u repay this?

Another heartbreaking episode of my agony story?

You, I hate you 

I'm stressful enough from the result. I knew I'm not at my best for this midsem, but can't u stop burdening me even more? I expected good news today, but u came for the opposite. 

I even talked how willing I can contribute just to see you alone. RM600 is not a little amount to deal with, for someone so stingy like me, but I might reconsider just to have a table for two and an individual photo taking only for you. But too bad, it turned out to be from someone else's offer. 

and you...

you come for FREE, and I will be the ABSENTEE

Damn it!

Why oh Why? Out of all the dates, u have to come during the time I'm struggling with my best effort to survive    for the coming final exam? If only, time machine is existed for real, or Doraemon is not just my childhood fantasy, yeah, if only.

and how thankful I am to my government for their endless support and concern, and for the brilliant minds contributed along. 

VERY THANKFUL

You upset me again and now, I'm portraying u and the rest dancing around happily in an ocean of crazy girls. 

I can't stop thinking how grateful I can be if I'm one of them except I'm not crazy.

gagagaga...

Brian Joo's fanmeeting proves everything

and last but not least,

you, I hate you

but...

I can't help liking 

you...

Lee Dong Hae

(I'm sooo overly romantic here)

so it turned out, Super Junior M will be heading their way to Malaysia this 28th May for the "Himpunan Sejuta Belia" event and according to the Minister of Youth and Sport, the concert is done to attract more youths to get involved with this event from 27th to 29th May. 

Let's bombarded my hurtful heart with this:

No $$$ needed except for the transport fees la.

That one, you pay!

Yeah, whatever dude, I won't be there pun. Thanks for the kindness. 

so to all Malaysian youths, lift up that lazy ass of yours and have ur great time there in support for our government. Let the boys know how cool Malaysian youths can be, and how cool I am to only posting this without being there. 

to Malay Language speakers:

http://www.kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2011&dt=0427&pub=Kosmo&sec=Terkini&pg=bt_15.htm

the prove that provokes me

Study.Study.Study.

Damn it! Exam is coming near, n I'm stuck here to write some random BS about my boredom days?

Daredevil. 

Gah, I hate myself even more, come on la, how on earth do u have this big gut to expand ur fandom during these   little days left before ur mid term? Ingat cool gile ke?

Stress? That's obviously out of list. Study week is like an option or opportunity for me.

Option: to stay up late at night improving ur level in all those games or wake up fresh in the morning after a lengthy sleep. 

Opportunity: to stay off the stove and watching all those videos u kept for two years in ur external drive.

and yeah, i dunno why, my hands are so carefree to scribble this out of nowhere:

Notice the B1A4 there? Jinyoung with his earphones? I swear, I put them all together at once. So random..
This is what I ended up after revising one lecture, and music core.

Where the hell all these inspirations came from? 

Here:

Jinyoung-ah! I don't care anymore! I might be a pedo, but i simply dun care now! 1 year apart. No big issue here. 

and last but not least:

Gud Luck for your mid!

It Was Meant to Be?

Q1. Have u ever regretted with urself, by just clicking the sign in bar in Skype? 

Yes, I do.

Q2. Have u ever regretted with urself, to post some regretful status in Facebook, notified, and end up being stuck for the rest 10 months?

Yes, I do.

Q3. Have u ever believed in the phrase of "It was meant to be" ?

Partly. Yeah, partly.

Gah, what's up with me these days? I posted some random stuff, got myself into some random activities, bothering my head with unnecessary things. Durh, even troubled my body and mind unawarely, and feeling zero about them at the end. 

Where have all these things came from?

I don't even bother people calling me a freak, cause I'm definitely one, but stop saying and asking me "why are u doing that? Can't you stop doing this? Please do this!" 

Hell! Stop bothering me please, get a life! 

Have your own space, cause mine is not fit-able OK!

xxxxxxx

Okay, enough with all the emotions, I finally finished watching 500 Days of Summer. I dare to say, I'm quite the ordinary, typical girl who loves all these lovey-dovey movies got to offer. Don't blame me for being a hopeless romantic person. It was a good story, but not something I can have my full sight for the 2nd time. I was hoping for the main casts to end up together. Too bad, it was a big NO pasted directly on my forehead for that. 

But, what came into my interest, was what the story wanted to deliver. 

You may fall in love, have all these childhood fairytale revolves around u, thinking someday, he/she is the one fated, believing the word LOVE is made only for you. 

But at the end, it isn't. 

I just love the way how the main girl said at the end of the story. I got the point there. Like how she wasn't sure about being together with the main guy. How she asked herself what if she wasn't there at the deli for lunch, how will it turned out if she was 10 minutes late. But that was all the IFs. At the end, she's still married to someone, not the main guy but the one she met at the deli. 

And I love how she said "it was meant to be"...

Cool! It is like how I picture myself, dating or having your crush fulfilling your fantasies of love and one day u came into a guy who happened to be a stranger, sitting beside you in a bus, asking for ur day...and end up being your so-called meant-to-be husband/wife. 

There are so many versions of love by the way. But the way you experiencing it, that one, varies. 

I can feel nothing over a confession or flattered even with just a simple worry over nothing. 

I can even say; "We're just friends, I don't think I'm gonna go overboard", but having a thought of wanting to be more than just friends at the same time. 

Pffftt, get your mind straight, Amal!

and today, someone turned me off. Like seriously, I know I have befriended with him for quite some time. But, asking your own friend you finally have contact with after some break to be your girlfriend...that's quite discomforting. Plus, ur asking at the wrong time buddy. I have so many things bothering my mind right now, and I dun think having a IN A RELATIONSHIP status is available for me yet. Just stay at the friendship status for now, k!

Don't make me google about the tips on

How to End your Friendship on Good Terms, that's not worthy bdw...=.="

and yeah, regarding the questions above, it was directed to you except for Q3. That's totally out of way. 

Little Mermaid wannabe

Triple hoooorraaaayyy for the newly joined swimming class.

Gagagagagagagaga

caye x, bagi seorang yg keje nye hanye mengadap laptop 24/7, korean freak, not-so-but-i-think-i-am-nerdy, mcm ak ni, sanggup gak die sacrifice 'precious time' die for something yg ak rase agk  miracle la. 

Nothing special pon when it comes to attending ur swimming classes. But what makes it more extraordinary than those previous classes, is...

tanpe ak sedari, ak makin rajin nak mati join all these sport activities after I went for my 1st class. Cool x? 

erk...tak, OK!

ntah la, right after Sarah n Mira ckp dorg nak join main squash, I was like...count me in! count me in!

comel je 

(OMG! self-praising ke?)

erk...ye, OK!

Lagi x caye ak sanggup terjah masuk swimming pool tu time winter2 nih kan. Suke je, mmg la...dah air die ade heater, boleh la terjah masuk...ntah pape. (Bajet macho la tu)

so, ktorg start class dgn blaja all those basic things before u guys can act. start swimming. And me being the slowest learner plus mmg dah ditakdirkan tuhan, aja 1000 000 kali pon ssh sket nak adapt kn. Tapi, x pela, berbekalkan semangat yg kuat tu, lepas gak la blaja, walaupon rse cam coach Arab ktorg tu tipu je time ckp good kat ak. 

stakat main2 renang camtu, good ke? klau ak jd coach, selagi korg x terbang2 dlm air cm kat olimpik tuh, selagi 2 x de bagusnye for korg!

(That's why la, I'm not destined yet to be a swimming coach, cause I'll definitely be a meanie and a total heart-breaker)

but seriously, once u guys have mastered some of the movements, even a part of it, there's a satisfaction built there. Cam ak x tau nape, where the hell does the urge to finish up my swimming sampai the end of the pool. Sampai sanggup tercungap2 cam owg nak lemas dlm air tu. Watching your colleagues doing well, unaware, u have these tiny competitive screams deep down ur soul. Laju je nak pecut kn.

My swimming class started to become more & more interesting. I never discovered my body can actually float for real before. Gagagagaga

kalau nak float tu, sure tenggelam je. Gelabah habis, sampai free2 je teguk air chlorine tu. 

And thanks to all my mates, my class was a pure fun. 

yoohoooo~can't wait for the next session.

and bdw, I took the 12 session which means...3 times a week (Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday) and that concludes, 1 month. 3 x 4 = 12! 

and we paid for 93.5L.E...

adela dlm RM46.75...alaa sekarang ni, currency Egypt adela nak dekat2 bahagi dua Malaysia pye. 

(the best reason to act. start shopping)

and okay, last but not least, just want da world to know, yeah...just...not must

I have to my mind to act. wearing braces. How cool is that? Definitely, not. But, the fun playing with ur own separators mmg cool. 

Rase mcm ade ayam yg tersekat kat gigi, but x keluar2 pon even how many times u tried. =.="

oh man...my 4 pre-molars. waa!!!~ I was bulging my eyes like crazy (and even Heliza n Ayed pon gelak on how epic my face turned out dat time) bile doc ckp kene CABUT 4 GIGI!!!. Bukan satu or due, but 4! 

God bless me!

okay, for the next entry, I'm gonna tell how my squash, ping pong and the CABUT part before I can call myself a BRACED girl. 

and before that, let's have ur sight first on the preview

muke Zati before pasang all those colourful things.
Comel je~

Pose maut from Fatin. Ak cabar ko dowh wat camnih time doc x de.

Muke comel from Heliza. Fine la korg, boleh la senyum lebar x yah kene cabut 4 pre-molars tu...

Muke excited before she was told "awak kene cabut 4 gigi"...DANG!

The posers!

Dun make me naming them, cause I'm a zero to that. Nanti dah wat research, boley la share
Btw, cute je. Colourful lagi. Like those toys I used to play with dolu2...

One of the reasons why I hate seeing dentist or a surgeon. Dh mcm stationery kat rumah dah.
Cantik lagi die susun!

Ni Ayed not me ok! Comel je Dr. Hafez tu time tye, what does it mean by coti coti in English....
erk, doc, there's no such words in Malay either. We definitely didn't say it like that...=.="
and yeah, please dun make it hurtful

Muke one satisfied customer!
notice the pink-turqoise-pink-turqoise thingy there?
I'm thinking about mine now. I want a row with only blue there (yeah, SUJU should be proudful) and purple!